Well, I'm a high school senior preparing to go to college. I applied to lots of schools and I heard back from lots of schools, but I'm still waiting to hear back from a lot of places so I haven't made a decision yet. I'm going to be a computer science/engineering major. I really wish I could study theoretical physics, but there's no money in that. I think I can find a way, though, whether it be through a minor or undergraduate research. I actually already have some published research in the computer science field that I worked on last summer, so it can't be that hard to do the same thing for physics. This is all relevant to my personality type, I swear. Just let me get there. So in school, I'm difficult for teachers to deal with. I don't pay attention much and I don't always do homework because I'm a disorganized mess. I'm definitely smart, "gifted" actually, but the school system just doesn't work for me. I don't like to sit in one place and listen to someone talk for 40 minutes, and then go to another class and listen to another person talk, and do the same thing every day for 8 hours for a year. I can still pull off decently high grades (not spectacular) most of the time, but my class behavior (or lack of) is atrocious. I usually just doodle and I rarely take notes, even though I really try to. I spend most of the class period just thinking about my own theories and stuff. I also have ADHD, and ever since I started reading up on the personality types, I've been curious as to whether or not there is some sort of correlation between being an INTP and having ADHD. I'm undergoing a lot of testing right now so that hopefully in college I will qualify for note-taking assistance under a 504 plan. Me and PeregrineFalconLady are on a Rick and Morty kick right now, and one of my favorite parts of show is when Rick talks about how "school is not a place for smart people". It just doesn't work for me. I was really down on myself for a while, because I thought I wasn't as smart as the other kids. I was actually in the special ed group in elementary school. But that doesn't make me stupid, it just means that I'm different and I'll have to find a way to make it work for myself. I'm definitely intellectually curious. Peregrine has seen my notebook that I made when I was like 12, I tried to teach myself quantum physics and I actually "proved" that the universe doesn't exist using the Placebo effect. Haha, looking through that notebook is just so cringeworthy. But little me was on to something.
I don't really know where I'm going with this. I sort of lost my train of thought. I'm not even going to edit that last sentence out because this is supposed to be raw and if I have no idea what the hell I'm doing then I'm just going to be honest about it. Oh something I wanted to set straight about introversion - it doesn't necessarily mean shy. Yeah I'm sort of shy sometimes around strangers, but I'm also outgoing in some situations, I take charge under pressure and I'm very blunt and honest with everyone. Introversion really means focused inside rather than focused outside. Like I would rather spend time inside my own head than out in the real world. I like to think for a long period of time, and I just do my own thing unless I'm required to take my ideas outside, at which point I'm not always shy about it. I like to talk about my ideas. I'm actually really good at speaking on the spot, I'm a professional BS artist and I can convince anyone of anything. I do think the INTP label fits me snugly, but the personality type stuff is sort of arbitrary to me because it suggests that there are only 16 types of people. There are about 7 billion people in this world, therefore there are 7 billion types of people. Everyone is different. But I think as long as these labels aren't taken too seriously, then it's healthy and kind of fun to categorize oneself with like minded people.
So, that's me I guess. Comment and we can be friends!